This Is It!


There comes a time when enough is enough.

Today is that day.

I am done.

I am done hiding.

I am done being an escapist.

I am done second guesssing myself.

I am done limiting myself.

I am done with being good at just one thing.

I am done with just trying and not striving to excel.


You don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone.

Well, time is precious and its time to write my story.


In the past 2 weeks, I have received news of loss that has befallen some of my closest friends and it hurts. Its painful, its confusing, its numbing, its baffling, its a conundrum to say the least.

What is one to do when loss and grief engulfs those around you?

How do we get past the internal turmoil and piercing pain that isn’t going anywhere anytime soon?

My answer?

Life’s short. Spend it well.

Break free from the constraints that hold you back and do what you’ve got to do. 

I continually ask myself, if today was it, what would they remember me for?

What I was insecure about or what I did despite life’s curveballs?

Well, I am leaving my mark and I am going to do it with fierce intention. 

See you out there. 





A thousand thoughts;
Race through my mind.
All form a simple reality.
A thousand shrads of pain,
All with one target;
My heart.
Miracles stay what they are,
Rare and far in between.
Illusions taunt me,
With glimpses of paradise.
Reality has me chained
To the realms of broken spirits.
From a distant source of comfort;
Symphony resonates
An eternity of resounding clarity and freedom!

Mutegi Faith, 2009




I can’t do this alone

I know how this ends

If I face life as a one man army

When I don’t know what I am doing,

When I don’t know where I am going,

When I feel I am used up,

Hold back the rain

Hold back the wind

Hold back the enemy

Save me again.

My heart had become a burial ground

But you’ve revived my very being

Triumphantly I shout

You’ve won my heart,

Unshackled my chains

When I get sick and tired of being sick and tired,

Hold back the rain

Hold back the wind

Hold back the enemy

Save me again.



  1. Clothes look better on a mannequin. ☺
  2. Define your world before the world defines you.
  3. Discipline, Discipline, Discipline. You may be talented, but without discipline, you will miss out on your purpose. Discipline drives your purpose.
  4. English is a language spoken by millions but still remains quite mysterious. How else do you explain one word with the same letter being pronounced in a myriad of ways? Well, I guess if humans have multiple personalities, why can’t words?
  5. Estate caretakers, house helps and security guards should all write a book, individually or collectively. What don’t they know?
  6. FACT: If you remember something important that you need to carry with you the next day, just when you are crawling into bed at night; just drag yourself out of them blankets and place it within your view. Otherwise it will be compartmentalized in the DONE AND DONE recesses of your mind. 😉
  7. Not all Meru’s chew or have chewed Miraa. Kindly don’t ask me how it tastes. I really don’t know and don’t have the urge to find out. Muchos gracias.
  8. Some colognes and perfumes were specifically made to test how strong and effective my gag reflex is.
  9. The wrong people don’t leave your life voluntarily. No they don’t.
  10. There is beauty in uniformity and splendour in diversity.
  11. To get somewhere, seek the help of those who have been there and done that.
  12. To stay relevant, you have to work as if you have just started the journey.
  13. Want to get better at your craft? Practice each and every day whether you feel like or not.
  14. Whatever you recognize, you become thankful for and whatever you are grateful for multiplies.
  15. You are blessed to be a blessing.




We all crave power in our lives. We thrive when we know we are in charge of something important. The lure to obtain power springs forth from childhood when you know you have something that someone else wants or doesn’t have. It pursues us all through our lives whether we want it or not. It’s said that if you want to know a man’s character, give him power.

Power is a double edged sword. It builds and destroys all in one blow. There are no limits to what power can do and can’t do. It can wipe you out with a sickening blow and you don’t see it coming.

If there is something I have painfully learnt this year is that getting a group of people to operate from the same page will break and build you then break and build you over and over again. The battle scars you bear are worn proudly or with great pain.

There are many reasons as to why people don’t get along.It may be that from the very first day you met, you knew that they are to be avoided for everyone’s peace of mind; then fate cheekily throws you in the same frying pan for an extended period of time. It may be that you are all in different seasons of your life and what you have to do together just doesn’t click with their current mood.


It may be that it being your first experience as a leader, overwhelmed you beyond your coping capabilities therefore you may go down in history as leader whose style of leadership was wanting. It could be that your entire year has been marked with major upsets that have rocked every single sphere of your feeble but resilient existence. It could be that you are very comfortable being a wall flower and only showing up when really necessary then disappear into the shadows.

However, life deals you its fair share of surprises and you have to be visible at all times. That’s deals quite a blow to one’s coping mechanisms and having an individual who doesn’t attempt to get along with you even in the slightest, can continually chip at your armour leaving you bleeding internally, but with the brightest of smiles on your face.

Oh be careful what you wish for, but even as you wish upon a star pray for wisdom to handle whatever situation crops up with each new dawn. Proudly wear your battle scars, revive your armour and let not one dull your shine.

How do you eat a whale?


There is nothing worse than a false sense of security in life. It clouds one’s judgment and sucks the life out of one’s very existence with each passing minute.

It saddens and crushes the soul to the extent of not wanting to think no more and leads one to seek a way to numb the torturous despair that engulfs their very being.


But it not all gloom and doom as your myriad of thoughts would like you to believe.

Despite the fact that the money in your possession right now seems like the definitive mark between you and poverty or nothing seems to go your way, no matter how many lists you write and re-write or how often you re-organize your daily routines to maximize healthy habits; the very fact that you are trying to make sense of all that surrounds you calls for celebration.

The fight never ends until you give in. Never, ever give in. Never ever give up. Do everything in your power to reach out, and make it work. it sounds cliche, but the truth is out there for you to see. You have heard it over and over again, but it never seems to pierce through the hazy fog that holds your mind hostage. Here it is again, the simple truth in different phrases that all mean the same thing.





The poem below  sums it all up.melinda-mae

Identify your whale today, and eat it, one bite at a time. Bon Appetit!