It has been said once
It has been said twice
But you still don’t arise
From the stupor
That you’ve immersed
Yourself in
In your efforts to
Blend in with the rest.
Don’t you know?
You are unique
One of a kind
It’s plain to see
That you are priceless
But you’ve not acknowledged
Your worth!
Look into the mirror,
Search your soul,
Refine your principles,
Give it one more try,
Stop thinking,
That the world
Owes you something
Coz it owes you nothing!
Life won’t offer a map,
But a compass

You need to get
To your Destiny
Through the
A new dawn beckons
Devoid of misgivings
And reservations
Push hard
Against the odds
Into world’s unknown
For you are endowed with
Never ending courage!
As you face another day
The spirit of champions
That lies within
For you deserve the best!

composed by






Break the chains,
Take those pillars down
Turn on the lights!


Sitting in the dark
Is a thing in the past!
Life goes on

It may ache
It may be difficult to recover
From the blows
That life has dealt
Onto your dreams;

You wish it would all go away
But that’s not how
Life unfolds!

Broken hearts,
Spilt milk,
Broken glass,
Whose impact
Cannot be erased!

It isn’t a sign of weakness
To reach out for help
Unwrap yourself,
From the suffocating cocoon;
Unveil the splendour
That has been dormant
For way too long!

Find the sparkle,
That you once had
Let it shine forth;

The first step you take
Is the longest stride
Worth the fight!

Composed by Faith K. Mutegi

November, 2009



A thousand thoughts;
Race through my mind.
All form a simple reality.
A thousand shrads of pain,
All with one target;
My heart.
Miracles stay what they are,
Rare and far in between.
Illusions taunt me,
With glimpses of paradise.
Reality has me chained
To the realms of broken spirits.
From a distant source of comfort;
Symphony resonates
An eternity of resounding clarity and freedom!

Mutegi Faith, 2009




Lil Wayne captures my sentiments to a T when he rap-(idly sings)…“I think about more than I forget…’’ It is hoped that these very thoughts will be a guiding light at the end of the tunnel that won’t turn out to be a bullet train charging toward me. A myriad of thoughts pervade my mind so deeply that others have to cut corners in the race to my subconscious. Though once they make their presence felt they instantly get their free ride ticket back to the dark abyss they emerged from.

The winding road upon which my shadow falls offers no map. Each day is a knotty conundrum that eclipses the dilemma as to how the pyramids were built. Glimpses of hope pierce through the blanket of darkness that seems to enclose my very being. Life’s compass points me East but I go West like Kanye. Trying to make sense of every facet life has to offer is more painstaking than the infinite search for a needle in a hay stack which may not even be there in the first place. Which lady in her right mind would sew or repair anything while sitting on a haystack…the calamity of searching for a needle in that pile isn’t comforting on any level.

Trying to understand the intricate details of our very existence is as baffling as trying to make sense of the duck-rabbit optical illusion.


At one point you are sure you are looking at a duck, and then voila you suddenly realize that a rabbit is the object of your attention. But wait a minute…I can bet your kidneys that you are looking at a duck. It never ends…does it?! However if you have the cynical mind of a hunter…you will be like…WTH…either one will look good or taste delicious once served on the dinner table.

With the daily events that mark our every day existence, one of my main mottos is that “wonders never cease”! Take for example you spot a fine brother who would make for a “tall drink of whatever your choice of poison is”. You would expect him to easily make the cut for Step up3 dancers’ Kenyan edition…if ever… but the best he can do is ask if you’ve got “tichue” to wipe his “chues!!” Fast forward to a different scene where a geeky, bespectacled jamaa who you would not look at twice goes on and unleashes some eye-popping breaking and locking moves that words can’t describe.

While still on dance, I am sure a couple of us mere mortals try to imitate and duplicate the sensational moves that we have just witnessed on the big screen. It may be in front of the imaginary flat screen TV or the mirror. Either way with the firm belief that you can, you begin to shake what your mama gave you while dropping it low as you whip your hair…back and forth. While at it you decide why not jerk and do the shuffle…you know…unleash your own personal moves.

Knowing the true definition of pain doesn’t begin to encapsulate what will be coursing through your body. Worse still, in this day and age you have to be careful that whatever you do in your personal time does not become public fodder because someone else let their fingers do the walking…click…flash…upload photo/video. O.M.G or G.F.F won’t do you any good at such a time.

I bet by now you are baffled at what I am getting at.


Well I gave you an advance warning….that my thoughts are anything but organized. No one knows the way life goes. When you close your eyes you may not see your names in flashing lights like Bruno Mars but I believe everyone can tie up the loose ends in their lives and come out  with a certificate of greatness.

It all starts with…a leap of faith.


This was written way back in February, 2011.

I need to inhale whatever it was I was high on at the time. 😉




… is a seed planted in our hearts.
Sometimes watered by tears,
it can grow into a glorious


… is knowing that in time,
in a few tomorrows, this painful
ache will fade to become
just a memory tucked away
in your heart.


… embraces you in comforting
arms. May our Heavenly
Father hold you & those you love
safely in His tender care.


… will soon be back in your life.
Before long this difficult time
will be behind you & your days will
be filled with cheerfulness & delight
once again.

PS. I do not take credit for this poem…I noted it down a few years back and when I came across it I knew I just had to share.




I recently came across some interesting conversation starters and thought I’d have a go at them.

1. If you could have a superpower, what would it be? 

I would hope to have the power to help children realize their potential earlier on in their lives thus creating a much better society. It will also lessen their stress and rebellious nature as they will be focused and the older generation will not leave them out or shun them; instead they would be inclusivity in all spheres of society.

2. What is your most favourite movie?

Well, I can’t choose  just one coz I love watching movies plus there is one that suits me with every mood or place or persons around me.  I can watch the following over and over again without getting bored.

  • Avatar
  • Avatar: Legend Of Korra
  • Brave
  • Bruce Almighty
  • Chip And Dale Rescue Rangers
  • Darkwing Duck
  • Despicable Me
  • Forrest Gump
  • Frozen
  • Gargoyles
  • Ice Age
  • Inside Out
  • Inspector Gadget
  • Kung Fu Panda
  • Lion King (1, 2, And 3)
  • Madagascar
  • Matilda
  • Mulan
  • My Big Fat Greek Wedding
  • Pacific Rim
  • Penguins Of Madagascar
  • Pirates Of The Caribbean
  • Pocahontas
  • Pretty Woman
  • Ps. I Love You
  • Ratatouille
  • Rio
  • Samurai Jack
  • Sea Biscuit
  • Shrek
  • Sing
  • Sister Act
  • Sleepless On Seattle
  • Slumdog Millionaire
  • Sound Of Music
  • Spirit: Stallion Of The Cimarron
  • Star Wars
  • Tangled
  • The Help
  • The Incredibles
  • The Lord Of The Rings
  • The Man From U.N.C.L.E
  • The Matrix
  • The Princess And The Frog
  • The Shaw shank Redemption
  • The Smurfs
  • Transylvania
  • Turbo
  • Up
  • V For Vendetta
  • Wall-E
  • War Room
  • While You Were Sleeping
  • Zootopia
  • To be updated continually. 😉

3. If you could paint your room, what colour would it be?

I would have to go with shades of purple and grey and a dash of orange or yellow. That might be a weird combination but I bet it will work if i have them in small doses. I am sure this will change in due time as I do love sprucing up a room every now and again.

4. If you could have one dream come true, what would it be?

For now, Successful and drama free purchase of 3 to 5 acres of Land (haven’t decided where yet);

Successful construction of a 4 bedroom maisonette with space for my children and guests to relax, have a picnic, outdoor camping and fun play area in the sun and in the shade as well as ample space to raise chicken, rabbits and possibly a few goats as well as grow basic day to day vegetables and fruit trees (mangoes lazima).

5. Where would you fly if you had wings?

I would fly to Japan to see the cherry blossoms bloom as well as immerse myself in culture, that I have admired for the longest time.

I would then fly to each continent and get to experience their culture as best as I can.

6. What is your favourite family tradition?

Every time we meet as a family is always fantastic as our different personalities merge and bring out the best of times.

Meeting up during Christmas and having a lovely time over food and drinks. I especially love the fact that we have evolved into our “own” persons and that brings variety to our conversations.

7. If you could only eat only one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?

Definitely has to be chicken. I would prepare it in so many ways and still get the thrill out of it.

8. What is your favourite sport?

Athletics and football, in equal measure. I guess I love watching sports than really participating in it, which needs to change. But I do love running and cycling too

9. If you had one wish (and you can’t wish for more wishes) what would you wish for and why?

That my dad was still alive to see his children growing up and becoming the strong men and women we have become; as well as keep Mum lifelong company coz she deserves it.

10. If you could pick your own name, what would it be?

I would go with Imani,( it has a nice ring to it)  followed closely by Makena, Kendi or Gakii. All in all I do love my name as it is; especially my traditional Chuka name.

11.What is you least favourite chore?

Washing clothes definitely takes the top spot. I would rather wash utensils over and over again than wash clothes. Why, oh why did Adam and Eve eat that apple? Why?


Well, that’s it for today. It was fun answering these questions and I will be on the look out for more. It adds a fantastic point of view aside from the kawaida questions.

Give it a try…its worth your while. 



It never gets old. It creeps up on you every other day.

It is said to begin at conception and ends when you are 6 feet under.

Despite it all, the struggle is real.

You somehow managed to drag yourself out of bed just in time to be at your scheduled task, meeting or appointment. You sigh out loud and put your best foot forward and do what needs to be done and all is well…for a while.

Just then, someone comes along, says hello and some niceties. As you cheer up being around them, they say something that makes you clump up inside.

“By the way, you look STRESSED. What’s up?” 

Oh heavens! There are some questions that need a whole day and lots more, if one expects a conclusive answer.

Naturally, we revert to the same old response…I’m fine, no worries. Traffic jams, economy ni mbaya, politics and the ensuing shenanigans na kuhustle tu. Oh! and the weather. This automatically come up as plausible responses. Soon after you get back to your comfortable shell and life drags on bila mbbbbbrrrrrrcha.

The same cycle spins over and over and you can’t tell one day from the next, neither can you pick out a great day from the past days or months or years.

Well, that was then. 

I broke my silence just the other day and I let my loved ones know that all was not well with me. I was done going through the motions and I let it all out. I also left the city for the weekend and had a sit down with my beloved Mum. She did her part and was there for me as I spilled it all.

Soon after, my sigh of relief was freeing and I knew I wasn’t going back to my stifling cocoon again.

I was trying to eat an elephant with one large bite.

It was time to consume it, one small bite at a time. 

There are motivational videos, clips, pictures everywhere you look. Everyone looks to have it made and you keep questioning your every move with each passing second, wondering what could be wrong with you. This isn’t going to change anytime soon. That’s human nature.  Deal with it.

(PS: Your mind will never cease to give you reasons why things are not working out your way. It has a list and checks it twice.) 

 I choose to embrace my discomfort and deal with it pragmatically and with support; not alone. 

Definitely, not alone. 


Lobsters are soft, mushy animals that live inside a rigid shell, a shell that doesn’t grow, that doesn’t expand. But if the shell doesn’t expand, then how does the lobster grow, you might wonder. Well… as the lobster grows inside its shell, it starts feeling increasingly confined by the very shell that was designed to keep it safe, comfortable. It starts feeling under pressure – literally.

In a bid to relieve the pressure and to facilitate further growth, the lobster finds itself a rock to retreat under, casts off its old, familiar, confining shell and produces a new one. 

As the lobster outgrows this new shell, it again feels pressured, retreats back under a rock, casts off its shell and produces a new one. Over a lifetime, the lobster repeats this cycle numerous times.   Rabbi Dr Abraham Twerski.

“The stimulus for the lobster to be able to grow is that it feels uncomfortable.”

It may take time for me to grow into my new “shell” but I am loving the new shift in perspective and the endless possibilities, however small, that I get to experience and embrace.

Get uncomfortable and reach out to someone close. Be willing to be vulnerable and the end result is much better than wallowing in self-pity or being stuck in a rut.

Therefore, going forward, if you see a text or a phone call or email from me; asking you to tag along with me for an event or if I ask for ideas on something (or someone) do give feedback or tag along, for I am not going forward alone.

I need you, you need me and I am here for you. So if I asked you right now;

“What’s up? Sema nisikie”

Let me know. I will pause and listen, really listen. I promise.

We will look for and  find a “rock” to retreat under, cast off our old, familiar, confining shell and produce a new, spacious one.